2013 been a VERY fulfilled year; I cleared all of my debts (ALL of em), I finally finished my college degree and now I am admitted in the program that I wanted, in University.
I did all this while working full-time. Why haven’t I done any of this before? I waited almost 2 years before making any move toward getting my life straight. I was really busy worrying about stuff that didn’t really matter.
I was lucky to meet someone that loves me and has my best interest at heart; he helps me, pushes me and supports me. But everything I accomplished, I did it. My life is finally heading to where I wanted it, but I was the only one who could make things happen. I know for sure because I waited for miracles to happen for 2 years and I lost my precious time and only made things more complicated in the end.
While everything happens for a reason, that doesn’t mean that I was meant to be lazy and chaotic. I had every choice in life. I made every decision that lead me to where I am now. I am 100% responsible of my life, it is my choice to stop looking for excuses, stop looking back (in anger, mostly) and treat every day like a new life, a new opportunity.
We often forget that life is as simple as: life is what you want it to be, is what you make it. And honestly, who ever promised you that an easy life was a successful one? Living in denial, it never made me feel fulfilled, proud and happy. On the contrary, the more I worked, the more I was approached my goals, the more I felt alive and in control. I now feel like I am living a life of my own.
But we are not alone in this. There is this French saying that says: Help yourself, then, the gods will help you. (“Aide-toi et le ciel t’aidera”).
It’s true, I experienced it. There was this time when I did all I could (and I mean everything in my power) to get somewhere. But there were some irregularities in my file and in the bureaucracy we are living in today, it was enough to block me from getting there. But it was so important, I worked really hard, I was checking on the process everyday, calling and emailing every time I could to try to reach someone that could maybe turn things in my favour. After all, I did nothing wrong and I really worked hard to get there. Finally someone heard about my story and she was in a sufficiently good position to change things.
Anyway, this post is getting long and confused.
You are God, You are the mind that created all that you perceive.
Never doubt yourself. You have no idea.