Is it me? Is it the advent of spring, or the warmer days, or the return of the sun, maybe it has nothing to do with it or maybe it’s all of the above?
All I know is that I don’t feel constantly tired and jaded anymore. I never thought that day would come, what a blessing!
I also have been working hard on myself, tried to find my new « self”, which would still be « me », after all …I really think I’m getting there…I am seeing the light at the end of the dark dark (and motherfuckin’ scary) tunnel! And it feels good! I’m peaceful, serene and in control of myself like I have never been ever before.
It paid off, finally, it did and god damn it, it was worth it! But I learned so much, along the way and I know I still have so much to learn …
They say “it is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles…” I actually had this saying tattooed on the back of my neck, in Sanskrit, a long time ago …
Developing a strong sense of self, true self, nothing is more important in the world.
To know yourself, look at your fears. Fear in itself is not important, but fear stands there and points you in the direction of things that are important. That’s where you can begin.
Wish me luck for the beginning of the rest of my journey 🙂
Hello Wide World of the Web,
I haven’t written in a month. I’ve been through a lot, some depressing times of the winter, after the holidays. I can’t wait for the sun and the warm days to be back.
I’m caught in a process where I’m trying to define my new self. Who do I want to be? What do I throw away and what do I keep from the old Me?
Most important, I need to find my inner joy, my inner strength and inner power.
Free myself from the constant fear of what other people might think.
A new era is about to beginning,
ATTRACT what you expect
REFLECT what you desire
BECOME what you respect
MIRROR what you admire.
Soo, weren’t you all waiting so impatiently for my list of 2014 resolutions!??
This year I didn’t want to make a list but after all, but I still had some goals in mind for this new year so I might as well just make one.
1- I don’t want to be tired anymore. Ever.
I need to do my best in order to keep my energy; not waste it on things that are not worth it, unimportant situation or people, sleep sufficiently and control my emotions more.
2- I want to be able to be the best version of myself at all time.
I don’t want to be less than that in my life. And of course, improve myself constantly.
3- I need to build my self-confidence.
It’s so stupid that I have to worry about that but actually; it’s causing me a lot of sorrow. I need to love myself to be able to love others as well.
As for my ambitions: I want to be successful in school, find a cool job in my field (as a student), create more friendships with the people around me, and build a stronger relationship with my lover everyday. That’s pretty much it for now.
I’m only sharing (modestly), maybe I can inspire (?)
« Be the change you want to see in the world »
It is everything BUT a moralizing sentence; it is not meant to teach us to mind our “own business”, it is simply one basic law of nature. It is absolutely true that we must begin by ourselves when we want to change the world.
Also, how can you change something you have no control over if you can’t even change things you can control?
The truth is: our life is simply a microcosm of the world and universe.
That’s right. That’s me.
I decided to write this blog, not knowing where it’s gonna lead me or how it’s gonna end. I kind of just felt to need to talk about some stuff and doing it publicly because, in a way, even if only one person reads this blog, we’ll both feel less alone. The classic.
I hope this will be an enlightening adventure.