Now you know that I know

….For some reason, it was very important for me to let you know that I know.

Now, I feel like I can finally let you go fuck yourself in peace.

Key

« The trick is to be able to protect yourself without being offended by the acts and words of others. To borrow an analogy from Castaneda, if you were out in the jungle, and a wild animal attacked you, you would do everything in your power to protect yourself but it would never occur to you to be personally offended. It is taking offense, not self-protection that is energy draining. »
– Esmeralda Arana, The Path

My body is a cage

So, here I am, a month later.

The more I examine and filter my thoughts (what I really think and believe), temper my emotions, and let go of everything egocentric, and the more I feel like myself. I realized that many external factors had a stranglehold on me and my feelings. I was like a prisoner of my own self because I kept myself from thinking clearly and from behaving for my own good.

It’s kind of strange, looking back and to realize that all these years, I had no clue of what I was doing. And you have no way of knowing that you are caught in this state until you decide that you’re done with being unhappy, tired, powerless and unfulfilled.

The key is living by the rules of nature. You can try to ignore them but you can never win. Like gravity, you can try to escape from it but it will get you in the end, no matter what. One of theses rules is balance; in everything you are, want, do, feel, etc…It’ll take you further and higher in every way because this is what the universe is aspiring to.

Yours truly,

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The light at the end of the tunnel

 

Is it me? Is it the advent of spring, or the warmer days, or the return of the sun, maybe it has nothing to do with it or maybe it’s all of the above?
Who knows?

All I know is that I don’t feel constantly tired and jaded anymore. I never thought that day would come, what a blessing!

I also have been working hard on myself, tried to find my new « self”, which would still be « me », after all …I really think I’m getting there…I am seeing the light at the end of the dark dark (and motherfuckin’ scary) tunnel! And it feels good! I’m peaceful, serene and in control of myself like I have never been ever before.

It paid off, finally, it did and god damn it, it was worth it! But I learned so much, along the way and I know I still have so much to learn …

They say “it is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles…” I actually had this saying tattooed on the back of my neck, in Sanskrit, a long time ago …

Developing a strong sense of self, true self, nothing is more important in the world.

To know yourself, look at your fears. Fear in itself is not important, but fear stands there and points you in the direction of things that are important. That’s where you can begin.

Wish me luck for the beginning of the rest of my journey 🙂

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Inner fire

Trying to lit my inner fire back.

A New Era

Hello Wide World of the Web,

I haven’t written in a month. I’ve been through a lot, some depressing times of the winter, after the holidays. I can’t wait for the sun and the warm days to be back.

I’m caught in a process where I’m trying to define my new self. Who do I want to be? What do I throw away and what do I keep from the old Me?

Most important, I need to find my inner joy, my inner strength and inner power.

And

Free myself from the constant fear of what other people might think.

A new era is about to beginning,

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17 ; THE STAR

ATTRACT what you expect
REFLECT what you desire
BECOME what you respect
MIRROR what you admire.

Top 3 New Year’s Resolutions

Soo, weren’t you all waiting so impatiently for my list of 2014 resolutions!??

This year I didn’t want to make a list but after all, but I still had some goals in mind for this new year so I might as well just make one.

1-      I don’t want to be tired anymore. Ever.
I need to do my best in order to keep my energy; not waste it on things that are not worth it, unimportant situation or people, sleep sufficiently and control my emotions more.

2-      I want to be able to be the best version of myself at all time.
I don’t want to be less than that in my life. And of course, improve myself constantly.

3-      I need to build my self-confidence.
It’s so stupid that I have to worry about that but actually; it’s causing me a lot of sorrow. I need to love myself to be able to love others as well.

As for my ambitions: I want to be successful in school, find a cool job in my field (as a student), create more friendships with the people around me, and build a stronger relationship with my lover everyday. That’s pretty much it for now. 

I’m only sharing (modestly), maybe I can inspire (?)

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Je suis perdue (I’m lost, help me)

I am tired as fuck, and sick and tired.

I think that I really need some time, alone, and time with my friends.
I don’t know …my life’s seems so out of control.
My routine has driven my personality completely out.
I don’t know who I am anymore.
I feel drained and dispossessed.

I seriously lack confidence and vital energy.

And I don’t know what to do. I don’t know WHAT TO DO.

I am lost.

2014 : Be The Change…

« Be the change you want to see in the world »

It is everything BUT a moralizing sentence; it is not meant to teach us to mind our “own business”, it is simply one basic law of nature. It is absolutely true that we must begin by ourselves when we want to change the world.

Also, how can you change something you have no control over if you can’t even change things you can control?

The truth is: our life is simply a microcosm of the world and universe.

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